As I type this two things are occurring, first of all one school has met and decided my fate and my letter of acceptance, wait list, or rejection is sitting on the Dean's desk waiting for him to sign it -- very scary. The second scary thing is that an admissions committee is locked in a room, with my file, and the files of 50 other students, trying to decide which 12 of us (or so) they are going to admit, then this afternoon the Dean will see a letter addressed to me with either an offer of acceptance, wait list, or rejection. I'm equally nervous to be accepted, as I am to be rejected. And speaking from experience (although medical schools won't say this) for the majority of people being wait listed is really just prolonging the agonizing moment of rejection.
I have a full day of work ahead of me, and I'm trying not to check my email every ten seconds to see if something new has come in... EEK! So, instead I'm checking blogger every ten seconds to see if any of ya'll have any wonderful distraction to share... a new website? a new blog? an awesome pair of round toe gray slouchy boots? anything??
Update # 1: Heard from the school who's admissions committee was meeting this morning... Waitlisted.... Ach! Talk about the 9th circle of hell paired with the awkwardness of limbo... I'm looking at it as a rejection because this school waitlists 180 people when the initial class size is only 108. Still waiting to hear from school number 2 today....
And I'm thinking about Grace:
1. Days and days of rain in Austin
2. My dad's radiation implant was successful, and although I couldn't be there (due to a med school interview), my grandparents were there. He seems to be in higher spirits than he has been in a long time, and he has a few treatment free weeks to look forward to!
3. A sweet friend who dog sat for me while I was away interviewing. Thank You for loving on her while I was out of town!
4. Meeting a sweet and wonderful woman on the airplane back to Austin, she piqued my interest in selling mortgage protection insurance... does anyone know anything about this? Is it for real? Any information would be much appreciated!
5. Although, I'm nervous about the medical school admissions results, I'm at peace... and sort of oddly confident. For the first time in my life I am really learning to trust that God has a plan. I know we hear that all the time, and we talk about it all the time, but I have never really owned it the way I am now. Whatever the medical school outcome, I know the process of applying and closing this door once and for all is a part of God's plan, and a necessary moment in my life...
Welcome to my new followers! I know that blogging isn't a popularity contest, but it puts a smile on my face, and makes me feel special to log in and see that there are a few more people in the world who want to read my drivel on a regular basis! I promise that once I hear the results of these interviews, the blog will go back to more fun randomness, and be a less of a medical school application confessional!